God is good. Period. As in the definition of good. As in anything apart from Him is not. Why is that so difficult to comprehend in my daily life? I like the idea of it when it seems to fit within my pea-brained understanding of good, but what about the times it seems to go outside of those parameters? What then? How do I understand that He is good, and ALL the time? That means no matter what the issue, the pain, the joy, the questions, the loneliness, the fear, the laughter, the evil, the loss, etc. He is still good. This is something that I am constantly going back to. The UNchanging ALWAYS faithful character of God. I will do a preach on it and sound as though I get it, and live my life steadfastly understanding it, but to be completely honest, that's not the truth. Sure, I get it more and more each day, but I am amazed at my reactions when challenges come. My first thought is to question His character. How heartbreaking for Father God to constantly be in the place of questioning by me.
Are you really wanting to bless me Papa? Are you going to take me this far and then pull the rug out from under me? How can I trust you, this circumstance/situation says everything opposite to what you told me.
I am just being honest, those are some of my initial reactions many times when opposition or questionable situations arise. Papa forgive me. Teach me to live rooted in your goodness. Not according to how I understand goodness, but according to WHO you are and your UNchanging character.
Every time I make it through an unlikely situation and am able to come out on the other side recognizing God's hand in it as well as his goodness; well, in each of those situations I build a beautiful history with Jesus that he IS fully the character He told us. That is what a wise woman once told me. This what I desire, to build a beautiful history of trust and faithfulness with Jesus. To not only tell of his goodness/character but to experience it.
